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So my last entry I am ashamed to say was in May. It's now August and my only excuse is... fear. I'm not sure what I'm afraid of. No one even knows that this blog exists so I should just write this for me. That is what I am going to do, I'm going to write for me, for practice and most of all for a sense of accomplishment because God knows that I need a sense of something!


Lately ( the last 2 weeks) I have felt very ill.
I have a long history of illness concerning my digestive system. Miraculously I have, throughout my short life developed a love of eating regardless of the fact that doing so often leaves me bedridden or in hospital. There is a theory, I'm not sure who's it is but it says that the human body often craves its own poison. I think that there might be something to this theory, does anyone agree?

My biggest poison, that is, my deepest cravings are for all things thick, rich and made of heavy cream. Top of the list would be yogurt. Anything 4% milk fat or more. I love the texture. I love how it hits my tongue cold and creamy and melts into my mouth and down my throat in an act that can be described as almost sexual.
Next on the list would be custards, warm and comforting with the scent of fresh egg yolks and cream. I think I could eat tripe if it was served to me in a bowl of custard. On second thought that might be a bit of an exaggeration but tripe is a ridiculous impostor of real food anyhow.
Also on my list are soft unripened cheeses, creme fraiche, and anything found in the dairy section.
Basically my point is... I am lactose intolerant and I plan to ignore it forever!

So tonight I am home with a sore belly, a headache and an insatiable hunger for creme brulee.

Time for bed,
goodnight void

x